Saturn

You can be a shitty friend sometimes.

And you should be nicer to your mom.

Currently listening to:
The Fray - Heartless remix

Tassel Hassal

Graduation practice today.

I sit between Kelly Azerson
and Conlan Ballod.

I have to shake four hands
while I'm walking across the stage.

I only got three tickets.
I asked for Six.  Oops.

Currently listening to:
Cute is What We Aim For - Fourth Drink Instinct

Rebirth

I remember waking up at home.

"I'll be great, man."
he said with a sly grin.

I didn't want to go.
I wanted to just sit at home.
Watch movies or something.

Regular kid stuff, ya know?

"Seriously.
He's got some great shit, dude."

I could feel myself caving
like a tower of cards.
"Yeah...okay, sure."

And we were off.

We got out of the cab in front
of a red brick building in SoHo.

I shot him a pained look but he
was too busy texting of our arrival.

"It's the loft on the top floor,"
he said "after you..."

I pushed open the heavy door
to a room full of mayhem.

A mixture of alcohol,
overbearing laughs, and
heavy beats crashed over me.

I followed him to a dark red leather
couch where he sat between
a bleach blond with pink lipstick
and some guy who looked as if
he hasn't called his mom in a while.

He extended his hand gesturing
for me to sit next to a girl
who's hair matched the couch.

The guy to his right took it out
of his pocket and passed it
around letting each of the partakers
to have their turn of fun.

The redhead passed it to me,
her hand grazing mine, I noticed
she had a black clover tattooed
on the inside of her wrist.

I took my share and passed it
on to a skinny guy with dreadlocks.

Everyone started laughing
and I laughed along.

The redhead handed me a drink
in a red plastic cup, I felt so thirsty.

The lights started to blur a little.
The redhead kept laughing.

I though she had a beautiful smile.

Currently listening to:
Fever - Archie Star

Closing Time

I once met this girl named Rianne.
I liked her smile and her thought process.

Miss you.

Currently listening to:
Buffalo Solider - Bob Marley

That blue glue from kindergarten

Have you ever reached that point
in your life where it feels like everything
had gone wrong and no amount of time
is going to make it right again?

Of course you have.
Everyone has reached that point.

It happens all at once.
Simple things at first, naturally.

Something like:
A fat feeling day
or
A failed math test
or
Your CD gets scratched

But it quickly takes a turn for the worst.
Something simple turns into
something a lot worse.

Something like:
A broken heart
or
Family issues
or
A friend betraying you

And then you start feeling lost.
The tunnel vision sets in.
You get that metal taste in your mouth.
Things start slowly spinning.
You feel sick.

Then, as soon as you feel like
throwing up all of those emotions,
you just start to feel numb... all over.

While feeling like this is one of the
worst experiences in our young lives,
there is one good thing to come from it:

The feelings that come after.

I mean, you can only go up
from rock bottom, right?

Currently listening to:
Falling Out - Relient K